Even though your gone I know that you are here with me in spirit everyday day. I can't believe that four years has come and gone because everyday I wake up without you I relive it like it was yesterday. But in my dreams I long to see you and hope that you are proud of me. You gave me the strength to accomplish the things that many said I could not do... and for that I am grateful. Never once did you let me down and because of that I am keeping my promise to you. You always told me to reach for the stars that nothing was impossible to complete if I just put my mind to it, and that’s what I did. I conquered the beast and let him know that even though my rock is gone he will not take over me. So many times I felt like giving up because you were taken away from me and then I remembered that even though you are out of sight does not mean that you are not around in spirit. After you died and I went back to school I could not focus, I was a wreck and I wanted everyone to feel my pain. And just when I thought I had lost it all you gave me hope; you made me see the light. Even from beyond the grave you were still there to guide me through my trials and tribulations. You gave me the courage to go back to school and get my degree and because of that you are the reason for my success today. When I graduated from College I felt you there with me as I walked down that isle. How I wished you could have been there in person to take a picture with me, but then I realised you were there; that bright light that shined around me in those pictures was you. My guardian angel, so many times since you've been gone, I have seen you and felt you with me. When I was at my all time low you were there to comfort me, when there was no one there to talk to you were there, at nights when I'm all alone I can feel you there. How I wish you could be here to see me off to University, get married even have children. When ever I am down I read your letter and remember all the things that you wanted to see me accomplish and I am doing my best to complete those goals. I hope you are proud of me and I keep on looking for you to show me your blessings. I made a promise to you to always be an original and never a copy and that is what I am doing. It is hard to gather with the family during the holidays cause every time the doorbell rings I dream and I hope that some how you will be there... and it's never you. We all miss you so dearly. I know that you are ok and not alone say hi to Janet for me. Greg misses you dearly and wants you to know that he loves you so much and you are always in our thoughts. We loved you then, now, forever and for always. I miss you mommy Camelya Buchanan

Charmaine, take heart, knowing that your mother is gone to paradise to rest with the lord, we as the living should think about our own souls where they will spend enternity when we are gone and what lagacies we will be leaving behing us.